ahhh.... fall. :D this is my favorite time of year.. i used to say winter/Christmas was and Christmas still is my favorite but fall is my favorite season bc of everything. it's so homey, the colors, the smells... my second favorite holiday of all times HALLOWEEN!!! then thanksgiving and my birthday and then winter starts and OMG i just love it all!!!!!!!


i'm trying hard to be as enthusiastic this year... i feel so depressed tho :(

i want to go back home, this weather sucks :(

if someone gave you the chance to do ANYTHING you wanted, what would it be? and i'm talking career/life wise. what would you choose? if you could have free school if you needed it and know whatever you do would work as long as you wanted it, what would you pick? would you want to own your own business, become a chef, do something in government. and why do you pick what you do, what is important to you in your life?

is it money?
fame?
family?
life choices?


something that you thought you wanted.. might not be.

Dear McDonald's...

I am writing to inform you that i no longer will be eating at your establishment. i used to eat there all the time when i still ate meat and granted i knew it wasn't the best food to eat so this is a healthy goodbye. you have nothing to offer me in terms of non-meat food except for your fries. taco bell has enticed me fully to the dark side especially after last night when i got a volcano burrito with beans instead of meat.

unless you step in up in the near future, i will no longer be needing your services

thank you,
me

"Who has never killed an hour? Not casually or without thought, but carefully: a premeditated murder of minutes. The violence comes from a combination of giving up, not caring, and a resignation that getting past it is all you can hope to accomplish. So you kill the hour. You do not work, you do not read, you do not daydream. If you sleep it is not because you need to sleep. And when at last it is over, there is no evidence: no weapon, no blood, and no body. The only clue might be the shadows beneath your eyes or a terribly thin line near the corner of your mouth indicating something has been suffered, that in the privacy of your life you have lost something and the loss is too empty to share."
— Mark Z. Danielewski (House of Leaves)

SAHM or dun dun dunnnnn horror movie!

i'll be completely honest... after i had remy i realized THAT is what i was supposed to do. i was supposed to be a mother and i love it more than anything in the world. i also love being a stay at home mommy which i never thought i would get the chance to do but now i was blessed with the opportunity and love every day of it.

that being said... a break would be nice? especially when hubby's been gone since friday and doesn't come home until tomorrow.. i'm about to lose my mind!!!!!!!!! ahhh!!!!! i can't keep the house clean, there are toys everywhere and he won't leave the drawers/cabinets alone!! we babyproofed every cabinet almost and left him one cabinet for his toys so he can "open" a cabinet if he wants. but now he's found the drawers above them and i look away for 2 sec and every drawer is open and whatever cabiner he can find is messed with. why? why remy? look at all those awesome toys you have.. why are you so messy??!! its like in the scary movies where they go in the kitchen and all the table/chairs are all stacked on each other.. ya my life is a scary movie but with drawers and toys.

vampires.. yes please

ok ok so i know there is a huge vampire craze going on right now but i can totally see why!!! i am getting way too enveloped with the sexy appeal of them lol. mostly i'm talking about Twilight. i was a little behind on the craze and i had the first 2 books but hadn't read them yet... awhile back i had rented the movie and the second i watched it .. my life as we know it was over lol. i immediately bought the movie and i can honestly admit i've watched it like 50 times lol. i then flew through the first 2 books and just earlier finished the third. i can't believe i didn't read these sooner.. i still have the last one to go which i don't have :( so when i go to town tomorrow.. i'm buying it no questions and prob will finish it tomorrow or the next day lol. i honestly have this massive fantasy world so built up in my mind that i even had a dream about edward last night LMAO. i seriously just want to eat this story up, I WANT IT TO BE MY STORY!!!! what about it is appealing? hm maybe the love he has for her is SO unbelievably incredible it leaves you speechless and of course you have to throw in the danger of suspense.. no not bungee jumping or anything like that.. knowing who you are in love with IS A VAMPIRE. it's such a sexy lust love it drives me crazy!!!!!!!!! and how romantic he is but also he's a vampire who can protect you by ripping other people apart.. sigh i'm inlove. and i know it was tech made for teens.. ugh but honestly i love it.. granted they better just get the tension over with in the last book and also turn her into a vampire or i will be disappointed lol. NO SPOILERS!!





i'm obsessed. and prob not in a good way. did i mentioned edward is the sexiest damn thing i have ever seen in my entire life?

as you can tell i've decided

to change my blog name :D i'm more into the blog than i thought and i want it to be about all aspects of my life, not just my eating habits sooooo this is the new title!

progress? :)

i'll be honest that sometimes if we grab something to eat out i'll be like. i'll get chik fil a or sthing similar... but i have not eaten any meat it's just an easy thing to say. first i started a long time ago where i didn't eat any pork bc it grossed me out, and i would eat turkey on like thanksgiving and christmas but that's it. so the only things left were beef and chicken. and there for awhile i used to think eh it's not that gross i just don't want to eat it... but now when i see commercials with something beef like tacos or such. it literally grosses me out to where i don't want to look at the channel lol. just thinking of all the nasty "i don't want to talk about pieces" that aren't meat in it...


VOMIT

weekend of insanity!

i'll be honest. i love my son more than anything. i also love when ryan comes home at night and helps me out lol. uuuuuuughhhhh i have been dreading this weekend for awhile now, ryan is on duty to where he works from this morning and doesn't come home until monday. i don't even know why this is bothering me bc last year and the year before i was used to him being gone weeks at a time, alot of the time... i guess i've been spoiled bc when he was deployed all i wished for was for him to be home and here he is and this is the first "weekend" he has been gone and i'm being a huge baby!!! plus i can't not admit remy drives me nuts after so long, especially when he's had a really crabby bad sleep week. luckily it's better than the first of the week but still.... i'll just be glad when ryan is back on monday and back to his reg schedule and comes home every night.

i hate this part!

sigh...

so yesterday i go to do some grocery shopping, i'm kinda wanting to hurry up and just need to grab some things to tide me over until next week. why is it that when you plan your meals out it's pretty easy but if you don't, there's absolutely nothing vegetarian in the freakin stores?? the same goes for baby food.. i'm still buying it for my baby but everything contains meat, and in this case it's not even that i don't want him to eat it but he doesn't like the foods with meat in it and refuses to eat them. the only thing i could quickly grab for myself were some frozen meals... some organic veggie spring rolls and some jalapeno poppers were as creative as i got.. ugh really?? why aren't there vegetarian stores?? i don't get it, they have everything else.. and unless there's one close to me i don't know about i haven't seen them lol. not everyone in this world eats meat people!!!!! luckily usually i have stuff planned out and it's not bad.

actually what's awesome about it is that it makes me eat at home more! because most places are hard to pick from to eat out at and that's my problem. however i can still get chinese and mexican (the good stuff lol) but if i want to eat out quickly its either fish tacos (bc i still eat seafood) or french fries... really?

ummmk

i'm prob just in a pissy mood but i don't get "friends" sometimes... you think you have a great friend in someone then they all of a sudden quit talking to you, including you, and just remembering you in general.

i don't get it?

bored bored bored bored

i hate boring days like this!!! i don't want to do anything ... but i do... geez

*Warning**Warning* Contains Adult Religious

it seems like anymore these days religion is not "talked about" and i wonder why? i mean i understand the reasoning .. not everyone has the same religion if they even have one and that's ok. i understand that the way one person feels or thinks isn't the same and people are scared that they will be judged or that it would turn into an argument because of the differences. but i'm ok with that... everyone has their own opinions and thoughts, that's how it is supposed to be. but lately i have been feeling something, wanting and needing something that's just not there and to be honest i think i finally figured out it's my faith. and i feel stupid that it took me that long to figure it out. i think it was jumpstarted by a book i have had since Christmas but just haven't finished until yesterday.. it's called The Shack and it's an AMAZING book. it really opened my eyes to alot of things and answered alot of questions i had in my own way. you know something that has been holding me back i think is the fact that alot of people are taken aback by religious people and i didn't want to lose family and friends over it but then i realized how happier i was when i lived it and i don't care what people think, i really don't. and the few i've talked to about this are very supportive and curious themselves so it's started a good thing. :) just so everyone is clear.. i am a Christan. i know i'm not prob the best advocate of it and i know that, but i am hoping to work on that. i can still be "me" and be who i want to be also. now from Christianity that's where it gets tricky. i have my own beliefs and the way i feel and i don't think it's "necessary" to have to go to church, but i would kinda like to try one out that i would like. now which one is the question...

there will be more for later and i hope you enjoy reading, this blog is turning into so much more and i love it <3

no meat = tasty

so i really haven't even been thinking about meat very much anyways... oh there's been a few times where i'm like let's just grab a burger or things like that. and in all honestly it's not even that i want the meat it's just easy to get.. but everytime i get a burger or anything like that i usually take 2 bites and get so grossed out i throw it away anyways lol. but i proclaim i haven't eaten any meat since i started this lol. (other than fish..which i'm working on)

yesterday back to yummy sushi place (crab) and for dinner i had yummy lemon pepper sauteed squash and red peppers with rice mmmm.

sad panda

i CANNOT believe my little tiny baby will be a year old in 9 days... :( makes me want to hug him all the time and cry lol. i'm pitiful. you know i used to wonder.. will the love be this strong when he starts getting older and older and it's not. it's much much more and everyday he entertains me in different ways and just grabs my heart all the time. i'm thankful he's so wonderful but just am having sad moments that he's growing up!!!!!!!! he is my <3>

i suck

at writing in this daily lol... nothing new or exciting the past few days... i found a new lunch love which is homeade burritos.. mmm. just refried beans and cheese heated up in a tortilla with hot sauce. easiest thing ever and super delicious. now maybe i won't go to as many fast food places lol.