i am

i am self-absorbed, but not too much
when it comes to my feelings i try not to touch
sometimes i hate myself, but mostly i don't
admitting i'm wrong and forgiving some i won't
there are a few aspects of myself i would change
maybe i should try, maybe i can't
i'm a little bit selfish, but give more than take
two-faced people and liars i hate
even worse are the decisions that you know the right thing to do
but can't bring yourself to
you wonder why that is and what it would hurt
to let down your guard.. just once
just once to see if it would make a change
a change for the better or a change just the same
what do you really want out of life
do you want to be free or do you live off of strife
which way to go, who to be
i don't need a plan i just want to be me